every day I was always afraid to sleep. I was afraid when I sleep I close my eyes I will not wake up again forever. I was always nervous every time I go to sleep that eventually I could not sleep quietly. I always thing that I will die soon. I'm afraid if I should die now. My sin was too much. every night my chest is always sore. I was always hard to breathe. I do not know anything until I get sick I always do. what my mind is only just. I'm afraid.